
“Then the disciples approached and said to him, ‘Do you know that the Pharisees took offense when they heard what you said?'” – Matthew 15:12
I’m having a bad day, Jesus. I’d like to roundly curse
the next sad soul who crosses me – or simply falls
in front of me. I don’t much care if they have given me
offense or not. I’m just a sharing guy – sharing my bad day.
I see you know the feeling, Jesus. Did you care
you’d irritated anyone that day? They’d asked
about your followers and why they didn’t wash their hands
(I’d like to know myself). Was that so bad?
You counter-punched, and hard. You charged them with
a greed that left their parents sunk in poverty.
Okay, I’m sure that some had done precisely that,
but all? Oh, no. Though… they had not corrected it.
You called the crowds, and told them all their leadership
spoke excrement. No wonder they were angry, Lord!
You added extra measure, calling them “blind guides,”
when you knew well the blind can understand.
It’s good to step away from these things, Jesus, You had said
enough and more. You’d demonstrated all too well
the truth that what comes from the mouth defiles.
These leaders and your friends have heard it all.
I hear the cry for mercy, now. A desperate soul,
whose love has brought her to a foreigner
to bring her daughter to herself. And you –
you treated her far worse than you would treat a dog.
Now do you blush to hear the words again?
Now do you soften softly your hard heart?
Now do you praise the woman’s sharp perception
and persistence and bring healing to the child?
I’m having a bad day, Jesus. You would know
the worst of days, and take them better than you did
this day. Might you spare a moment then, I pray,
and soften stony heart inside of me?
A poem/prayer based on Matthew 15:10-28, the Revised Common Lectionary Gospel Reading for Year A, Proper 15 (20).
The image is Jesus and the Woman of Canaan by unknown artist (ca. 980 – 993) – Codex Egberti, Fol 35v, Public Domain, https://commons.wikimedia.org/w/index.php?curid=8096755.
Painfully honest and challenging – so real: “sharing my bad day”. Thank you for putting the story of the Canaanite woman back in the gospel context of Jesus’ abusive anger towards the Pharisees and scribes, his need to get away, but not having got away from himself, bringing his anger with him, as we so often do when we are at the end of our tether. I find such a human Jesus easier to relate to and more inspiring than a paragon of perfection.
Thank you so much! Part of me really wants to have a perfect Jesus, but the Gospel writers didn’t give us one. As you say, it feels more possible to emulate the human Jesus.
I thank you, as Barbara does, for the full context of this (not my favorite passage as a guest preacher) So hard to separate Jesus from God, who does not have a “bad day” and how incredibly freeing that you do.
I’m not quite ready to jump into a theological maelstrom, but there’s a lot of Scripture about calming a furious God, which does make me wonder…
Sigh … yes!