
October 1, 2023
Philippians 2:1-13
Matthew 21:23-32
She was the best. Everybody knew it. When young koa’e kea began learning to fly, they aspired to fly like her. She was the best.
Koa’e kea move awkwardly on land, and so did she, but the grace with which she’d take off had everyone gasping with amazement. One moment she was stationary on the ground, the next moment she was in the air, moving as if she’d never been anywhere else. When fishing, she would dive straight down, and only stray to the side to intercept the moving fish in the water below. Her take-offs from the water were as seemingly miraculous as her take-offs from land. One moment bobbing in the waves, the next moment climbing to the skies.
When young koa’e kea tried to race her, they rapidly fell behind. When they tried to turn more sharply than she, they either skittered away or fluttered helplessly down until they’d caught themselves and controlled their flight again. She landed so gently that her legs barely flexed. From time to time she’d gently roll through the air. Those who imitated her went through day after day of struggle, turning this way and that and descending rapidly, until they finally mastered those subtle movements of the feathers. Then they’d roll, but never with the same grace and power.
When she wanted to relax, she’d catch the rising air above Halema’uma’u Crater, soaring in rising circles with barely a wingbeat, higher than any of the other koa’e kea dared to go, a spot of white against the blue sky.
She was the best.
One young koa’e kea was determined to be her successor – in fact, to fly even better than she did. He studied every move she made. He exercised his wings. He spent hours facing into the trade winds and seeing what happened when he moved this feather like this, or that feather like that. He was going to be the best.
There was one difference, though. He announced it.
“I will be the best!” he said at some point during just about any conversation. He knew he wasn’t the best, not yet, but every koa’e kea on the mountainside knew what he aspired to be.
As for the best flyer among them? She said nothing, did nothing, but flew her best over the ocean, and over the pali, and over the mountain. When someone asked her help or advice she gave it (she was a willing teacher), but there was never a word from her about who the best flyer among the koa’e kea was.
There were plenty of words from the younger one. “I’ll be the best!” he said. “I’ll be the best very soon!” And indeed, that seemed like it might be true. He was taking turns almost as sharply as she. His take-offs were almost as magical. When he soared, he rose nearly as high.
So his grandmother took him aside one day. “Grandson,” she said, “I am very proud of you. You are the best flyer of your generation, and you may become the best flyer of us all. I’m so proud of all your hard work.”
“I’ll be the best,” he said.
“But one thing, grandson,” she said, “will prevent you from being the best if you keep doing it.”
“What’s that?” he asked. “Is it the way I hold my tail on takeoff? I’ve been working on that.”
“No,” she said. “It’s the way you keep talking about becoming the best.”
He was confused. “If I’m the best, or nearly the best, shouldn’t I say so?”
“Does the best flyer among the koa’e kea need to say it?” his grandmother asked.
As he thought about it, he realized that she never said a word about it. Even when she was doing something showy – like those rolls through the air – she never did it in a way that upset the other birds. She relaxed through those rolls, and in those rising circles, so that nobody ever thought her skill was a taunt or an insult to them. It was just an expression of her joy in flight.
“No, I don’t think she does,” he replied.
“You’re more than a good enough flyer,” said his grandmother, “that you don’t need to say a thing about it, either.”
It took a while to break the habit – bad habits are hard to break, aren’t they? – but on the day that his soaring circle reached higher than hers, he said nothing about it. She did – she congratulated him on his skill – and the two of them were the wonder of the koa’e kea of Hawai’i Island, rising, turning, diving, and soaring so beautifully that everyone else watched in wonder and in awe.
by Eric Anderson
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Photo of a koa’e kea (white-tailed tropicbird) by Eric Anderson.
Thank you for my Monday morning story. It sends me personally off into reflections about how I sometimes internally or externally say — not “I’m the best” but “I’m still good” at whatever it is because I am older. And, of course, nobody is saying I’m not. Ah, the insecurities of young and older.
My personal struggle is with hubris – and, ironically, also with imposter syndrome. Sadly, they don’t cancel one another out. I do hope that the years have done something to make me better at a few things. Mostly, I hope I’m better at stepping away from pride and self-condemnation.
I do know the combination of pride and self-condemnation and it is so toxic.