Seek and you will find, O God. (Who said that? You did, God, in Jesus.) Seek and you will find, O God, and God: Pray seek and search and find your sheep, O God.
Oh, we are lost. We are lost in fogs of falsehood, lies, and gaslit speech. Yes, we are lost in wealth’s allure and power’s cravings – and we think we’re fine.
Yes, we are lost in understanding what is great and what is craven bullying. Are not the great hearts open to the world, not walled into imaginary safety?
Yes, we are lost when shepherds seek their gain and leave the sheep to sicken and to die, reward the greedy with the choicest grass and leave the thinner sheep unfed.
So, Holy One, pray save your flock, no more to be the prey of ravishers. Yes, judge between the shepherds and the sheep and sheep. Feed us, one and all, with justice.
A poem/prayer based on Ezekiel 34:11-16, 20-24, the Revised Common Lectionary First Reading for Year A, Proper 29 (34), Reign of Christ Sunday.
At that time Deborah, a prophetess, wife of Lappidoth, was judging Israel. She used to sit under the palm of Deborah between Ramah and Bethel in the hill country of Ephraim; and the Israelites came up to her for judgment. – Judges 4:1-7
It’s good to know, O God, the place that I could go for wisdom, between the villages of Ramah and Bethel. Between “the height” and “House of God,” why, yes, assuredly, is wisdom found.
Oh, let me find the palm of Deborah in days when folly struts across the land, a Siren song of foolishness which some dismiss and some embrace.
For folly is a foe of deadly consequence as ever were the soldiers of King Jabin or his captain Sisera. A quarter million deaths are close at hand.
Send us a woman of discernment such as Deborah, a woman of quick courage such as Jael, a woman to dispel the clouds of complementarianism.
Send us a woman, a figure of Wisdom, to speak: and let the posturing of men be left in history’s bin.
A poem/prayer based on Judges 4:1-7, the Revised Common Lectionary First Reading for Year A, Proper 28 (33).
[The people said,] “Therefore we also will serve the LORD, for he is our God.” But Joshua said to the people, “You cannot serve the LORD, for he is a holy God.” (Joshua 24:18-19)
[Jesus said,] “The foolish said to the wise, ‘Give us some of your oil, for our lamps are going out.'” (Matthew 25:8)
My faithfulness is… erratic. Let’s get that right. Strong in speech – sometimes. Strong in action – well, it’s happened. Strong in sustained endeavor… Um.
I’m cautious enough to carry extra oil (batteries, cords, replacement lamps). I’m aware enough to know the things of human effort… tend to break.
I’m honest enough to look upon my own faith practice with not too much self-flagellation, not too much contented self-approval.
I’m honest enough to see that as I answer Joshua’s ageless question, “Which God will you serve?” I am likely to respond: “At this moment, me.”
In the next moment, though, I’ll say with tears, “You have the words of life. Who else should I follow? Who to serve?” And then I’ll trim my lamp.
But…
In these days, I find, the lamp is weighing less and less, the oil level settling. The lamp still burns, but for how long, O God? How long?
And where am I to find a store of oil to replenish what I’ve saved, and used, and burned? For light is fleeting, and the night is long.
A poem/prayer based on Joshua 24:1-3a, 14-25 and Matthew 25:1-13, the Revised Common Lectionary First Reading and Gospel Reading for Year A, Proper 27 (32).
Amidst a global pandemic (which some deny), amidst racist violence (which some discount), amidst xenophobia (which some applaud), amidst voter suppression (which some embrace), we come to express the will of the People, O God.
May there be wisdom. May there be health. May there be compassion. May there be mercy.
To be quite truthful, Jesus: I cannot really claim to know just what you meant by “Moses’ seat,” and what you meant to say about authority, interpretation of the law, or representing God. For certain we have called a host of people “Lord,” or “Teacher,” “my Professor,” “Mom,” or “Dad.”
Whatever may be true about the Truth Divine, how cloudy and obscured it is when heard from human tongues or hands! Just like a cosmic game of “Telephone” in which the loss of clarity means life for some and death for many more. But Jesus, we have heard your words through intermediaries, assembled generations after you had taught.
From you to eager followers who did not, I know, take notes, from them to others who, perhaps, would write a word or two, to others yet who finally recorded what they heard on reeds, on parchment, vellum, paper, with a press, and on to me today reminding me once more that greatness is the act of service, and hubris is just asking to be tumbled into dust.
Once more my memory returns to a great soul, who truly in her life embodied what you said was great, whose smile was the mirror of her soul, who sparked new life in all who saw her, who heard her words, who knew with her such joy. I’m sure she was a human, not a plaster saint, because her passing pains me still, and woe, ye world, that misappraises pride for what what is truly great.
There has been no one like Moses, but then really, has there ever been another like, well, anyone? In all the majesty of wonder, the greatest wonder yet may be: that I am I, and you are you, and though we share some ninety-odd percent of our genetic code with cats (though Moses might not like to hear it) we are one and yet distinct, unique and ever linked.
…whom the LORD knew face to face…
Of whom is that not true? Oh, You who knew me long before I breathed the air, You to whom the streams of time are not a straightforward cascade, who dances on the river-foam of years, for You, the face is less effective than a mask in hiding what we in delusion think is “privacy.” You know us soul to soul – soul to soul.
He was unequaled…
Ah, yes. Now there, I must confess and so agree, I am no Moses. What soul has found release from bondage or captivity though my essay? Perhaps, at best, a mind has passed an obstacle, a heart found comfort or a soul relief. No Moses I, nor many (any?) of Your people. May one and all take up the staff to set Your people free.
A poem/prayer based on Deuteronomy 34:1-12, the Revised Common Lectionary First Reading for Year A, Proper 25 (30).
God: “…but my face shall not be seen.” (Exodus 33:23c)
Jesus: “Whose head is this…?” (Matthew 22:20b)
Faces clattering as coins descend to bounce and roll across the counter; faces whispering as fingers count the bills, exchanging paper for some goods.
Faces flicker on the screen, three up and three across to form a game or set the stage for stories, echoed now in tiny screens within a telephone.
Faces sheltered in the swaddling cloth of masks, reducing by some meaningful amount the risk of illness and of death to me , to you, to those we love.
Faces twisted now by scorn and rage, by privilege and power and by pique, faces streaked with tears as faces lacking breath are given to the earth.
Faces sighing from exhausting toil, faces bright with gratitude for love, faces furrowed with confusion, faces that conceal the hearts within.
Each day I face the faces, Holy One (if just the one that gazes from the glass), and every day I long for one bright face, O God, the one I cannot see and live.
Some day.
Some day.
A poem/prayer based on Exodus 32:12-23, the Revised Common Lectionary First Reading and Matthew 22:15-22, the Gospel Readingfor Year A, Proper 24 (29).
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Finally, beloved, whatever is true, whatever is honorable,
I used to call them “Squirrel Days,” O Jesus. Before I moved here to this island without squirrels, it was my tag for days when concentration failed, when focus flailed, when even consciousness would fade.
whatever is just, whatever is pure,
It’s funny how the unimportant can assume such prominence and even over what is right before me. Who needs the phone to ring or text to buzz when adolescent disappointments still possess me?
whatever is pleasing, whatever is commendable,
I cannot even concentrate upon the evils, cannot choose which one is worst, which ones are worse, which ones are dangerously proximate. Sufficient for this year are evils, rages, suffering arising in a single day!
if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise,
Incarcerated children, children still not reunited with their parents, refugees denied a hearing, tear gas fired at civilians, a pandemic dismissed despite two hundred thousand graves, a tax break for the rich and no relief for those now unemployed.
think about these things.
Oh, I’ll try to follow Paul’s advice, dear Jesus, but I am… somewhat… distracted.
A poem/prayer based on Philippians 4:1-9, the Revised Common Lectionary Second Reading for Year A, Proper 23 (28).
If you had given us fifteen commandments, God, we would have kept them… even worse.
You shall have no other gods before me.
Except for wealth and power. Except for claiming our self-righteousness. Except for comfort. Except for what fulfills a moment or a day.
You shall not make for yourself an idol…
Except for units of exchange. Except for statues celebrating history founded in illusion. Except for pale-pigmented skin.
You shall not make wrongful use of the name of the LORD your god…
Except to justify oppression. Except to conjure up Your favor of injustice. Except to claim that wealth and power, even evil, are Your will.
Remember the sabbath day, and keep it holy.
Except for the essential workers. Except for those we will not pay a living wage for their six working days. Except for those at home we do not pay at all.
Honor your father and your mother…
Except for those the stresses of the world overwhelm. Except for those whose errors are still lesser than their love. Except for those we choose to lay aside.
You shall not murder.
Except for those we find a threat. Except for those whose nations we oppose. Except for those we fear.
You shall not commit adultery.
Except upon intense desire in a moment. Except upon a disappointment with the spouse. Except when something better comes along.
You shall not steal.
Except to maximize my profit over others’. Except to minimize my workers’ compensation. Except to claim Your work is mine.
You shall not bear false witness against your neighbor.
Except to emphasize my righteousness and power. Except to render powerless the ones in opposition. Except to maintain structures of oppression.
You shall not covet…
Except… every damn day. Every damned day. Every damnable day.
If you had given us fifteen commandments, God, we would have kept the other five… even worse.
A poem/prayer based on Exodus 20:1-4, 7-9, 12-20, the Revised Common Lectionary First Reading for Year A, Proper 22 (27).
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